Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me: Depression in the First Person

Category: Book
By (author): Paperny, Anna Mehler
Subject:  BIOGRAPHY & AUTOBIOGRAPHY / Personal Memoirs
  MEDICAL / Mental Health
  PSYCHOLOGY / General
  SELF-HELP / Mood Disorders / Depression
Publisher: Knopf Random Vintage Canada
Published: August 2019
Format: Book-paperback
Pages: 352
Size: 8.96in x 6.09in x 0.99in
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From The Publisher*Award-winning journalist Anna Mehler Paperny's stunning memoir chronicles with courageous honesty and uncommon eloquence her experience of depression and her quest to explore what we know and don't know about this disease that afflicts almost a fifth of the population--providing an invaluable guide to a system struggling to find solutions. As fascinating as it is heartrending, as outrageously funny as it is serious, it is a must-read for anyone impacted by depression--and that's pretty much everybody.

Depression is a havoc-wreaking illness that masquerades as personal failing and hijacks your life. After a major suicide attempt in her early twenties, Anna Mehler Paperny resolved to put her reporter's skills to use to get to know her enemy, setting off on a journey to understand her condition, the dizzying array of medical treatments on offer and a medical profession in search of answers. Charting the way depression wrecks so many, she maps competing schools of therapy, pharmacology, cutting-edge medicine, the pill-popping pitfalls of long-term treatment, the glaring unknowns and the institutional shortcomings that both patients and practitioners are up against. She interviews leading medical experts across Canada and the US, from psychiatrists to neurologists, brain-mapping pioneers to family practitioners, and others dabbling in strange hypotheses--and shares compassionate conversations with fellow sufferers.

Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me tracks Anna's quest for knowledge and her desire to get well. Impeccably reported, it is a profoundly compelling story about the human spirit and the myriad ways we treat (and fail to treat) the disease that accounts for more years swallowed up by disability than any other in the world.
Review Quote*"In this courageous and honest book, Anna Mehler Paperny plumbs the depths of her own acute depression, and also investigates the cultural, social, and historical discourse around despair. She writes with a stunning fluency that belies the narrative's underlying pain. This is an insightful and important book." -Andrew Solomon, author of The Noonday Demon

"Anna Mehler Paperny illuminates the dark corners of suicide and depression with wit and tenacity. Both an extraordinary work of journalism and a poignant, harrowing (and occasionally funny) memoir. Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me is fearless and necessary." -Don Gillmor, author of To the River: Losing My Brother

"This is such an important book. . . . Paperny writes with urgency and intensity because she's tapping into an essential truth: everyone deserves dignified mental healthcare, but systemic injustices create huge discrepancies in how people are treated. I learned so much from this engaging, well-researched, courageous book. It belongs in the canon of ‘must-reads' to understand mental health treatment today." -Mark Lukach, author of My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward

"A remarkable book . . . I am just so impressed by Anna's honesty and rigour, her courage, her thorough research, her insight, her wisdom and her sense of humour. I hugely admire what she has achieved. I am sure it will be a great help to many people, and I have come away with new understanding after reading her book." -Dr. Irfan Dhalla, MD, MSc, Vice-President, Health Quality Ontario, St. Michael's Hospital
"Compelling . . . This is a very good book. People coping with depression will find it supportive as well as entertaining (Anna has a great sense of humor). I also think it will help educate the public." -Dr. Marcia Valenstein, MD, MSc, Psychiatrist, University of Michigan Hospitals, and Veterans Affairs Ann Arbor Healthcare System 
"Anna's the best journalist I know. Her story about the mental healthcare system as seen through her own experiences is an act of monumental bravery. This is a book that will save lives." -Omar El Akkad, author of American War, on Twitter

"Clear-eyed without being dispassionate, this book has so much to offer even the most well-versed in mental health issues. Anna Mehler Paperny goes far deeper than the surface conversations we usually have about depression, giving us the unvarnished reality of what it means to live with the feeling you want to die. Brave and brilliantly researched, this powerful book is poised to create real change, and is an absolute must read for those who have had their lives touched by depression-which is everyone." -Stacey May Fowles, author of Be Good and Baseball Life Advice
Biographical NoteANNA MEHLER PAPERNY is an award-winning reporter for Reuters based in Toronto. Over a decade she's chased down stories ranging from the opioid crisis to migration, from post-quake Haiti to Guantanamo Bay. She's written for the Kingston Whig-Standard, the Edmonton Journal, the San Francisco Chronicle, Maclean's Magazine; as a staff reporter at The Globe and Mail; and a reporter-editor for Global News, where she developed globalnews.ca's award-winning Investigative Data Desk. Her work on deaths in Canadian prisons won an investigative journalism award. At Queen's University, she spent most of her time working on the campus newspaper.